新年快樂! 萬事如意!
希望大家一切美好!
保持童心 無憂無慮!
新年快樂! 萬事如意!
希望大家一切美好!
保持童心 無憂無慮!
一個人處理事情的方式, 往往會受到過去經歷過的事影響
一個人的個性也如此
二十幾年來我沒有清楚的認知到底為什麼我會這麼沒有安全感 這麼害怕失去 讓我沒有辦法好好對待自己與我愛的人 因為我沒辦法接受空間也因為覺得會被拋棄而容易失去自信
與一位好朋友的對話讓我第一次如此清醒地了解到我的問題
1993年
當年我媽帶著我和妹妹們去上海找我爸 那時候我也已經有大概有半年到一年沒見過我爸 在好不容易全家團聚不久後 我卻又一個人被送回台灣
因為我爸有回台灣工作的可能而我也需要上小學了 所以只有五歲的我就被先送回去 雖然說我跟我姑姑一起住 我在她當老師的學校上課 可是她很忙 我的同學也一放學就回家
於是我常常就只能一個人 那時候 印象最深的就是一個人自言自語 玩石頭抓蚯蚓抓昆蟲 還有在課堂上莫明其妙大哭 說要找我媽
從那時候我就開始覺得我一直是一個人 很需要別人的愛與關懷但是又得不到 就算身邊有家人有朋友也一樣 覺得沒有人懂我需要什麼
當然我家人都很寵我而且我又是長子長孫 我也很愛也很感謝大家 但是那麼小就與爸媽分離的我 在需要與妹妹們分享注意與關懷的情況下 已經完全失去了安全感 而也深深影響到我之後與朋友的關係 國中高中到大學也如此
但我根本沒察覺 只是無謂的一直生氣和破壞建立起的自信
我現在覺悟 我也希望改 不然對事業對愛情對家人我都是不可能做到最好 也無法為身邊的人帶來快樂

Cheesy as hell – but we are all human. Image via Princeton University
In reality, equilibrium is only an observation over a large scale of time, but at any specific time period, things are more like a pendulum, swinging from one end of the spectrum to the next. Looking at the world today, and the violent conflicts that seem to escalate in scale, it would appear that the world has forgotten the horrors of war – the incredible devastation of the two World Wars that obliterated most of Europe – and the resulting need for international unity and harmony.
As the old Chinese saying goes “after a long time together, it ought to separate, after a long time divided, it ought to come together”. In many ways, if we look at the history of the world, that is exactly how things play out. The world gets smaller, then it divides and feels farther apart. The Macedonian Empire disintegrated into separate polities, only to reunite again under the Romans. The Mongolian tribes were brought together into the largest empire ever seen only to fall apart. In some ways, faced with globalization and the increasing recognition of a common human fate, we have come a long way in terms of joining together as one nation on Earth. Yet, on the other hand, with religious strife, ignorance or the embracing of, military and economic conflict of interests, the world appear to stand farther apart than ever.
As Cecil Lewis wrote 80 years ago in his memoir Sagittarius Rising:
We are aware, for instance, that the incredibly rapid development of communications has telescoped space and time. We know that prosperity is interdependent, that currencies are linked, that commerce is international. But only a few (mainly business men whose pockets are affected) take all this for granted. They demand, as a matter of common sense, that international relations should have international control. For the rest it is an ideal, not an urgent practical necessity. The general public remains isolationist, patriotic, aware (like Nurse Cavell) that patriotism is not enough, but aghast at the problem of coordinating and controlling the life of the planet.
So vital a division puts everything in flux. Nobody knows where to pin their faith, so they believe nothing. Moral and social standards are confused. Disillusion, introspection, defeatism are the lot of all those who can only live by the yardstick of black and white. The fear of feeling the ground slipping from under their feet drives whole nations back into the medieval despotism. They will submit to anything sooner than face this social relativity where nothing is straight, nothing constant, nothing sure. But emulating the ostrich, though it may bring relief for a space, doesn’t not solve the problem. It leads straight back to self-immolation on the altar of outworn patriotism, that is, to barbarism.
How prophetic it was, and how little things have changed in the last 80 years. How much emphasis we still place upon our differences instead of our similarities. How ignorant the majority of the world still is.
Turns out, our so-called education isn’t enlightenment at all. Rather, it is a system to subjugate their subjects to filters. This, combined with the human need to categorize, easily plays into stereotypes and causes few prominent incidents/figures to symbolize entire populations.
We all face the same issues of life. We are all seeking stability and family, a sense of direction and achievement. We are all human beings eking out our living on this planet. It is time to recognize that.
With the instability of the Middle East, headlined by ISIS and Syria, we need to recognize what is really the cause of the conflicts. Violence only begets violence. Furthermore, as I mentioned in a previous post, what did West expect to happen when they destroyed the economic, political, and social infrastructures of the region?
I stand by this belief that if we provided the economic and political stability the region needs, instead of bombing and attack the insurgents – destroying more of the already devastated environments – these conflicts will cease to exist. Destruction only plays into the terrorists’ agenda. The destruction of livelihoods only increases the draw of these organizations – what else have these people have to lose anymore?
Lastly, when a group of nations become involved in military operations, these conflicts can expand into other regions. Just look at the tensions between Turkey and Russia at the moment.
Let’s solve bigger issues affecting all of us – like climate change and energy – instead of bickering among ourselves till a bitter end.
[Image via Princeton University]
It has been a week full of major tragedies around the world. From the attacks in Paris and Beirut to the hostage situation in Mali, we have seen several coordinated terrorist attacks on a scale not seen since 9/11. There have been multiple commentaries on these issues and some laying the blame squarely on the Western nations and the United States. There have also been negative reactions, especially in the United States, towards the issue of Syrian refugees. Yet, a lot of what is being said is either retrospective or prospective. People looking for reasons to why and people looking for actions to take next…
Here, I want to give my own short take on this issue. There is no doubt that this conflict is violent and militaristic in nature but the issue centers around the economy – the financial ability of the Islamic State to sustain itself. Islamic State controls large swathes of territory across Iraq, Iran, and Syria and have a source of income that allows them to administer their governance and their military operations. A large part of that income appears to come from oil, sex trade, ransoms, and agriculture. Oil as the fuel for war, especially in the Middle East, is nothing new. Much like the Second Gulf War in 2003, the solution appears to be the destruction of infrastructure: bombing oil fields and oil tankers. Is it really a good idea? With much of the region’s economy dependent on oil, what happens after Islamic State is destroyed? Has anyone given thought to the political, economic, and environmental consequences of such destruction? Has anyone thought about the devastating environmental impact of bombing oil fields?
For the most part, the majority of the people under IS control are innocent. Yet, this sort of destruction and retaliation by the West, is exactly what drives the youth to join in the extremist movement. How can anyone be alright with the destruction of their livelihood and of their environment? Furthermore, most of the refugees are those who are fleeing these conditions and yet they are turned back by those nations who are causing such destruction in the name of freedom.
Is there no other way? Large-scale airstrikes and military operations targeting infrastructure is the most obvious and easiest plan of action, but is there no other way? Even if the other ways are harder, if they leave the region with a sustainable economy and potential for stability and growth, won’t it make the world a safer place for all?
*It’s been a while since I wrote poetry. Hope you like my latest piece of work. Comments and suggestions are most welcome!
Who am I?
I am always 1989 but I was 5, I was 10, I was 25
I am always Taipei but I was Shanghai, I was Hong Kong, I was St. Louis
True, I am one of undistinguished many, yet many stories am I of only one
I remember honesty
was young Washington and his tree.
It was not I,
until I broke a toy and told my mother a lie.
Traveling started
on a flight to Taiwan alone.
I was four,
before I realized that I will never be home.
Science’s inspiration
was Alan Grant and some kids in a park.
I kept up,
soon I studied animals in a jungle looking the part.
Three Kingdoms,
taught me friendship and loyalty.
Its examples I followed,
since I ended up leaving everywhere I went.
I am a brother
to three younger and headstrong sisters.
I learned care,
during the two years when all we had was each other.
The world was black and white
coded in knowledge and morality.
I grew up,
after I made ambiguous choices like those before me.
Acceptance came
because everyone I knew was from some place different.
It was I,
as I chased after knowledge and understanding.
Who am I?
I am nothing but a unique collection of common short stories,
started in 1989, started in Taipei, Taiwan.
– William Fu Lien Hsu
October 26, 2015
There is always something to learn in every situation – depending on your perspective.
Some might say it is always better to get an internship at a large corporation for its name recognition, connections, and employment opportunities. It is true. A lot of times, having a big name on your resume (much like a degree from a renowned academic institution) can stack the odds in your favor during a job hunt. Yet, I believe being an intern at relatively new or small companies provide special opportunities to learn and grow.
The current company I am working for is small. We have two owners, nine employees, and two interns including me. I am the marketing intern and I work with two others, making up a three-person marketing team. The small size of this company meant that I was actually handed much more responsibilities and allowed much more involvement in the business than the average intern.
As of today, I am in charge of operating and managing the company’s market research and analysis, Facebook Ads, and Google Ads campaigns. I am a constant presence in board meetings and have been given a chance to voice opinions on and suggestions for the business operations of the company. In some instances, I am actually affecting company policy. For example, through data and cost analysis, I was able to persuade the owners to begin a more active Facebook Ads campaign and move away from traditional advertising such as radio ads. I was given an active role in identifying the CRM needs of the company and research opportunities to switch from Constant Contact. Without much guidance, I identified cities and zip codes with our target market and with potential for business expansion, leading to the company’s requests for title reports on properties in these areas.
It has been an amazing opportunity to have been given so many responsibilities. In many ways, I function more like a full-time employee than an intern. Some might say I am providing free labor, but I believe what I am learning makes up for the lack of pay. I have been able to gain basic knowledge in marketing, in the real-estate industry, in mortgages and the relationship between lenders, brokers, and clients, and in the process of a mortgage loan application. To an even greater degree, I am gaining extremely valuable insight in business operations: what does it mean to run your own business and how do you go about doing so?
This internship has shown me the importance of business planning and its relationship with marketing plans, the importance of company culture and its relationship with attracting quality employees and motivating existing ones, and the importance of establishing structure. By structure, I meant on-boarding and off-boarding processes, time-logs off which to base wage payments, management hierarchy, rewards and punishment schemes, and so on.
Lastly, I am getting another lesson on the importance of effective communication skills in managers. There have been times where I will need sit through three hour meetings with the marketing team to clearly hash out one objective or goal. There have been times where our team needed to sit through several meetings with the owners to get a plan or a decision approved… We all need to learn to be better communicators or at least be effective facilitators or moderators.
In sum, I have learned more about business operations and management than anything else during this internship. Furthermore, having been given great responsibilities, I am developing valuable skills in marketing and research for a future position. Though the situation may not be ideal at a small company, what I am learning is invaluable.
Last week, I started my internship with WLM Financial – a real-estate brokerage. With my interest in urban planning and development and my background in the social sciences, it appears to be a good fit to work as their Marketing Intern. I was quickly integrated into the marketing team and I am happy to say that the owners have been very trusting and gave me a great opportunity to learn. They have taught me a great deal in the past week about mortgages and real-estate. They are always open to questions and really took me under their wings. I look forward to learning more about the real-estate industry and about business development.
Though I am only an intern, my opinions were valued and contributed to the direction the company is taking. Using my skills with ArcGIS, I took the initiative located our target audiences. I integrated demographic data with geospatial data from the U.S. Census Bureau to reveal locations where our target audience might be located. I was quickly able to locate ten cities in the Los Angeles Metropolitan Region and narrow it down to several zip codes. For example, in the city of Carson, we identified at least 5000 residences for our direct marketing campaign.
The owners are also ambitious. Despite the company coming into existence in July, they are already looking for additional states to expand their operations. To assist them, I looked into home sales, home value, and potential refinancing data. Equipped with this information, I developed a list of ten states with great potential for the company’s operations to expand to.
This week, our marketing plan took a leap forward as well. After attending the Facebook seminar on using Facebook Ads and Pages to promote local business, I was able to convince the owners to start the company’s Facebook Ad campaigns. Going forward, we will be looking to promote and develop our brand image on Facebook in order to drive engagement and distribution of our ads when we do start ad campaigns. If you are a first-time home buyer, look to attend the company’s seminar this Thursday at First Time Home Buyer Seminar.
Yesterday, I started my first online course with Coursera – an organization that provides online education through various university partners. I enrolled in the Data Analysis and Interpretations Specialization, which is a certification that comes with four courses and a capstone project. I took this course to develop my qualitative analytical skills and to learn Python programming, which will be extremely helpful especially with my interest in GIS. The capstone project will also provide me with an opportunity to develop, research, and present a professional quality product that I can show to potential employers as I continue to pursue my career.
To complete this specialization, I am required to update my progress on my personal blog here. So I will be sharing my work, insights, and progress here. I look forward to telling you all about how this course is going and perhaps encourage some of you to pursue additional education. One of the best feelings in the world is learning a skill and applying it. Besides, I always look forward to an adventure – that is exactly what learning is.
[Image via Coursera]
Today, I helped out with the Taiwan Products Day in San Gabriel, CA. It was a great learning experience and one of the first times I helped out with a large scale event. Customer service was incredibly important and I found it amazing to help people. With a winning smile and great patience, it was amazing to see how easy it is to make someone feel comfortable. I enjoyed solving problems as well.
One of the vendors could not find her package at all and it was essential for her meetings with her buyers today. (Hooray Google!), after obtaining her tracking number and the logistics company, I was able to track her package. We found that it was delivered safely to the hotel and was misplaced somewhere. With the help of the friendly hotel staff, we were able to locate her parcel and deliver it to her before the event began. It may sound simple, but helping a nervous vendor feel comfortable and ready for her meetings was a great feeling. I began to understand what it means to deliver great customer service.
Well, any large scale event will also have its bumps. We faced an angry vendor and a bunch of random people who showed up just wanting to take samples that were display only. Besides facing a busy crowd of buyers who needed to register, we had to keep an eye out for our vendors’ samples and find some way to redirect and turn away those who were not supposed to be at the event.
I really enjoyed my experience today and I learned a lot. It certainly helped to have a great team. I just want to give my new friends a shot out. Thank you for making today enjoyable and it was a great pleasure working with you all. I look forward to our next get-together!
[Photo Courtesy of Hazel Chen]
As a recent graduate, I have a fair amount of time on my hands while job hunting. This meant that I have plenty of time to indulge in reading, one of my favorite pastimes. I am a pretty avid reader cutting across a variety of subjects: history, biography, biology, classics, philosophy, to name a few. One of my favorites things to read is books about foreign places, cultures, and histories.

I recently devoured the book, Turn Right at Machu Picchu: Rediscovering the Lost City One Step at a Time by Mark Adams. The author retraced the expeditions by Hiram Bingham III, who was famous for “discovering” Machu Picchu and a host of other Inca ruins in Peru. The book is highly entertaining and really reminded me of my own time as a research assistant in the Peruvian Amazon. If you are interested in learning a little bit about Inca culture and history, there is lots of nuggets in this book. If you want to visit a foreign place, but is unable to physically at the moment, this book will take you on a journey through Peru.
The descriptions of the climatic craziness and incredibly diverse landscapes in Peru resonated with my own experiences – from the gloomy and coastal city of Lima, to the high altitude and rocky Cuzco, and the tropical and humid Puerto Maldonado. One moment you could be freezing in the cold winter of the coast, the next you could be dressed in shorts in the blazing heat of the tropics. With these varied, difficult to navigate geographies and climates, Peru actually still have vast areas with limited human presence. It is an incredible place to visit if you enjoy the outdoors.
Mark Adams also described the intricacies of each major Inca ruin and of their importance and interconnections: how the Incas used their sites for rituals and astronomy, how the Inca Trail connected all of the sites in a pattern, why was Machu Picchu built where it was. This got me thinking about my travels again…
I am very fortunate that I have been able to visit so many places at my age. Growing up as a third-culture kid, it was somewhat inevitable that I developed somewhat of a wanderlust. It grew out of a need to find an identity and a sense of belonging. Travelling can either broaden your worldviews and horizons or narrow them. For me, each trip I took served as food for growth and added to my identity, but I don’t think I ever got closer to finding a place I belonged.
Seeing foreign cities and cultures fueled my interest in studying human behavior and our relationships with the environment. Turn Right at Machu Picchu was a reminder to why I chose to study Environmental Social Science at ASU. I hope I can land a job that will lead me further into the exploration of cities – the foundation of human society -, be it modern or ancient.
Let’s take a break from the heavier stuff.
In recent years, I have taken quite a liking to cooking and making desserts. This is partly because I am beginning to notice how the food you eat affect how your body functions and feels. Another reason is the sense of accomplishment that comes with making good food. I admit, my skills as a chief is probably only average, but part of the fun is to see my personal growth. With each meal and dessert I make, I gain more experience with how to prepare the ingredients and what to do once the fire is on.
Desserts are my favorite things to make. The more challenging the dessert, the more I want to attempt it. I always love a good challenge and a hard dessert is like a puzzle to be solved. Personally, I think unlike main courses and dishes, most dessert recipes require some delicacy to their preparation and cooking. It takes patience and care to make a good dessert. As the ancient Chinese like to put it, calligraphy is the practice of character – I believe dessert making is the same. It is amazing to see something so delicious come out of the most basic ingredients. This is especially true when I make everything from scratch. For example, when I make tiramisu, I prefer making my own ladyfingers instead of buying them.
In the process of blending and mixing the ingredients, I always thought the amount of love and care you put into it determines how good it tastes. Albeit, sometimes the desserts just do not come out the way you expect. I made an apple pie last night that had a great filling, but the pie crust for some reason was very salty. I could not figure out why, especially because the amount of salt used in the dough was only 1 teaspoon. When something like that happens, I get this urge to throw it out and make it all over again. Then again, I can always just make another.
I must admit, however, that most of the desserts I have attempted thus far are mainly Western. For my next challenge, I definitely would love to attempt some of the traditional Chinese desserts. In my opinion, Asian desserts are harder to make. Perhaps that is because I am less familiar with some of the ingredients and certainly, living in the States, I have been less exposed.
Cooking, like writing, can be a demonstration of your character. It is also a reflection of how you take care of yourself. It takes planning, patience, preparation, care, creativity, and the ability to multi-task and to keep track of a number of things. These are all important life-skills to have.
If anyone has any really tasty recipes, please share them with me so I can attempt them!